Sunday, October 30, 2011


My last post was early summer and now it's mid fall...oops. There has been plenty of times that I wanted to write but was feeling self conscious about making it public, like I'm bragging or something. That's stupid; it's my blog. This blog is about facing my demons, and I had a revitalizing weekend and so I'm feeling like I have the ego-strength to do it.

So there are a few things I want to blog about. First of all I read this book called, "Heaven is For Real." It's a child's account of heaven, after he wakes up from surgery. The father writes the book through the child's words and backs it up biblically. I thought it was wonderful. Even if the story isn't completely accurate, or even real at all, the account that the child gave, gave me beautiful images and I know that heaven won't disappoint, so in the meantime, I'm just going to revel in the images in my head that were stimulated by this book.

Ok, another thing. I started taking ballet again about 5 or 6 weeks ago. I love it. I danced all the way through grade school, and even as an adult, I've got to say that dance really does energize my soul. I was really worried about taking dance again because it's been 5-7 years since I did it. In college I did a little bit, but it wasn't enough to keep me looking and feeling like a dancer. In fact, from the moment I stopped dancing, I have never been satisfied with my body, coupled with the fact that I love dance, I knew it was time to find a studio. I am so lucky that I found a great instructor. It's hard to find adult dance classes that are not professional. So, I'm in this class with some high schoolers and it's great. It's about where I left off and I actually feel like with hard work I can get back to where I was when I left off.

So, especially since stopping dance, I've struggled with my weight. But, you know what, besides not being active enough, I drink too much and when I drink I indulge too much. I'm not an alcoholic, but even when I drink red wine, even when I drink straight whisky without all the sugary mixers, I can feel my body hold on to toxins that shouldn't be there...I totally sound Chinese right now. Anyway, I've gotta start thinking more about nutrition. I'm usually good at it, but I've sort of fallen off the band wagon recently.

I had a relaxing weekend. I went to the countryside with some girlfriends and we talked, slept, and relaxed all weekend. The seasons have changed, and I have been left with the energy to make some changes. Couple that with the fact that I signed up to run a 5K. Yes, I know, I hate running, but it's really good for you and a 5K doesn't take much to train for so I don't feel like I signed my life away. Matt signed up for the Marathon and so that'll keep me motivated to run. I think that is sort of crazy, but still, I don't want to be the bum on the couch while Matt is training to run 26 miles...oh geez, it hurts to just write it.

So, if you want to be helpful and encouraging, check up on me every once in a while. Ask how I'm doing with dance and the 5K. I'd definitely appreciate it.

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